A Commerce of a New Year

Haha.. just a laugh to end a year which's going to end with enormous memories though unforgettable yet painful as well. First off, would like to thank the Lord for all that He has done, spiritualy and mentaly as well. It was more of a surprise that I was chosen out of the other teens to lead a group of young innocent, adorable kids below the age of 7. Having to carry this responsibility to teach God's Word to them as well as the pressure from school and home which sometimes drives me to the brink. I was just in the ministry shorter than the others but the overall leader, i guess, see something in me. It's really something I couldn't get from anywhere, going for training and so forth, it's tough, but fun, yea, haha. But most importantly, it was really a breakthrough for me, from being a quite worldly to a more godly gal. Only a handful knows how and what I was like before, I don't mean bad, but in spiritual terms, worldy, yea.. I used to like all sort of things, but I still dress appropriately of course. I used to watch alot of anime, love it so much, knowing every debut and MVs of every artist, playing games that I used to indulge in. So now I'm leaving that wordly life, upholding my all to Him, dedicated to Him alone. And too, I thank God that this year was a great year as well, a turning point in my spiritual life. And thank God for the times we spent as a family, sharing each other's burden and overcoming obstacles, great actually.

And not forgetting, meeting the three was like a great gift to me as well, they became like my mentors, letting me know the importance of a friendship as well as brother and sisterhood which I cherish so much ever since. Though others may misunderstood my intentions and what forth, causing anger and break-ups. yea, that was the bad part. But I thank God for letting me know the three.. cos I really adore them so darn much, truly, and they also mean so much to me too, that's why I treat them like my own family and to help them in all possible means. But at times I overeacted as well :p sorry guys. Who else? Rohana, Brian and Ashwin :) I'll cherish this friendship with you guys forever..

And my results.. ahhh.. not satisfying but I deserve it. Too lazy to study, last minute studying, heh... dats why result like that la. B for geo cos I was struck with a sudden eye strain and bad headache during the last paper, sigh. But still, gonna thank the Lord for all that He has done, though I didn't finish studying, wow, come to think of it, it's really by Your grace. But I really wanna apologise to my mom and dad, especially my dad, for humiliating him with this results, sigh.. really sorryyy dad, gonna work harder now, not gonna let you down ;( hah, sigh.

Well, my last words for this year, and my wish to everyone around me regardless of acquaintance or friends. May the Lord our Savior who has poured down His everlasting love ever bless you in any ways and may you grow closer to Him each day. He'll make your paths straight and strengthens you to do the things He wants you to do for Him. Ask and it shall be given unto you, seek and you shall find. And for those who yet to know Him will eventually know that He's the One who could save you. So seek Him and not the flesh, for He is mighty and wonderous to help you out :)

Not to forget..

*~HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!!!~*

...A finale and a commerce of a new year...

Christmas- ta!! Sweetie~

Walla~ the birth of our Lord Jesus onto this earth, may we remember the frank and true meaning of this wonderful day and season.

Christmas day means wrapping gifts too! Harh.. whole day yesterday was a spiritual warfare. Lord, we have fought the battle, and now we are victorious and glad with peacefulminds indulge in much happiness to celebrate this day. Fuh, after the warfare we wrap presents for our beloved church friends, and guess what time we wrap.. 1 a.m... till 4 am.. woke up at 8 this morning, almost cant woke up. Amazingly I didn't feel sleepy the whole day, everyone is now sleeping, except me, hehe.. sneak and on the computer! Muahaha..

Hahah.. just finished wrapping everyone's gift.. so online now! Hehe.. Yupee.. mum gonna cook delicious cuisines and roasted chicken! Ahh.. the aroma.. lol. Can't wait to open the gifts.. hehe, owh, btw, dai go, I opened the gift you gave me during that day, hehe... thanks again :)

Seriously no idea what to write.. *BLANK*~

Oh ya, I appreciate everyone's gift given with that cheerful heart of you all. To me, a gift given with a wiling and cheerful heart worth more than the price of it. So thank you all, even if you give me something that's worth a sweet, I'll dearly appreciate it too :D Sincerely, yes.

Anyway, we sang a Birthday song for Him!! Yupee! Lalalala.. Happy Birthday, Jesus!! May all your people be filled with joy and rejoice upon this great day. Amen.

*~Blessed Christmas~*

THANK YOU, JESUS

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What a day! Hahah..

Wow, another hectic day. Guess I'm gonna go through the whole routine for today. First, woke up around 8 in the morning, practise playing the piano for really long, yet, teacher say she can't make it, sigh.. could have slept for those minutes to at least have more strength for the day. Then, have to prepare ingrediants with mum for the Christmas drama, made about 70 sandwiches, phew, but I didn't finish doing it, my siblings finished it off, cos got to rush to the party already.

My mum almost didn't allow me to go when I told my mum at first that I may have to go there by train, then she made up her mind to ask her friend, ben's mum to bring me and kai. Ash said he's at Megamall, can't come with me, then guess what, he took a cab and walk all the way.. kesian, but we walked all the way too!

Yea, about the party, let me go through the whole thing. I know the paint for the room was bought by tiffany from IKEA and painted by the youths, including tiffany and brian, of course. How I know? Haha.. easy thing. Yup, I really do enjoyed the party!! A really sporting mum and a mature and brave son. Lol.. kinda blur at the begining so can't really figure what to actually do and say. Owh, knowledgeable Kenny became leader! Claudia and I forced him, poor guy, end up calling our team Kenny Rogers, hehe, owh, that's Claudia's idea. Haha, I'm really kia-su during games, pardon me for that. Actually, I still find the magazine part the funniest of all. Eh, I tot it was Ash, then when I turn around, you said: "Thanks, geraldine, thanks for the idea." lol.. But of all, too bad we 3 missed the important part.. sigh, sorry, have to run errands today, seriously hectic.



Ash and kai came to my house and ate spagetti while mum shared more to them :D then, immediately rush to the drama. Great performance.. indeed. For just a short testi, yea, testi time.. Kai actually phoned me last night to tell me that both of them not going for the drama, after that I went and do my normal time alone and I came to a passage that I read before. It says that Jesus told the disciples that a faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains, and it requires prayer and fasting. So I decided to do it and ash phoned me and say that they are coming! Haha! Really thank God! And that's why it's important to do your time alone, you know? Ash saw Ron and he keeps on teasing me.. sadly, kai too. That time he was just 7 feets behind me, kesian la.. alone also. But hey, he's just a friend to me, and I like him as a friend. Haiyo, kacau me like that.

We came back after 10.. really tired and sleepy. My eye-strain came back again, always happen when I'm too stress.. It's 2.40 am now.. gotta sleep! And again, thank You, Lord!

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True Facts

Just some.. I think.. rather true definitions about me..

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong.

You definitely have a dominant personality.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

May I?

I find it just simply hard to be able to take that breath when things around me seem wrong, uncertainty that prevails. Sigh, it sounds emo, but I'm not emo-ing, cos it's not good.



Harh.. my only hope to ever forgetting those dreadful thoughts at times is to just turn to the Father, the One that can take any insecurities, depressions and that hopeless self out of one. The greatest comforter yet a ruler and King above all.



Sigh, my life fell to a conclusion: everything doesn't seem really important now, giving it all up to Him seem to be the best panecea to my answer. Lord, have all the words from your chosen ones to me have been the answer to my question all while? I'm full of uncertainties that affects my concentration, and has drain off my energy till the last bit of it.

Just found out that ron has the same ambition as I do but he says it's not good business here, true. It makes me think that all this worldly ambitions and desires or pleasures isn't the utmost priority in my life. To me, he's just my guy-friend, nothing more to it, just someone I could talk to at times, mere friends.

I'm clueless.. Could I get over with all this, that I too can contradict what have been said? That love too may seem unimportant to me at the end? THAT I'm not sure.. but it seem I could let it go just like that.. Someone has asked me just now whether I've a boyfriend or not, but I just simply reply him as I've said before, is: this hasn't really been in my mind for now, I'll save it for later, when the time is right.. but for now, it would just be God and other important stuff. Why? Definite uncertainty.

One question

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May I?

Random stuff

Just some things about me that I seldom mention:

I'm a kind of person who don't really like to be all girlish, handbags, clothes, shoes pink? Nahh.. someone thought that I'm like one but NO! And also, going for manicure or pedicure and stuff like making yourself beautified with products and chemicals. It's unimportant for me and I don't put make-ups, natural beauty.. lol.. But most importantly is to spend your time getting close to the Lord and strengthen that relationship with Him. Though so, I love artistic stuff and maybe that make me an artistic person as well besides going for art class long time ago.. And, I'm contemplative.. hehe.

I love listening to musics, christian's, worldly ones. Haha, I remember watching MTV or [V] every single day, but I've stop listening english songs because I find it to be a waste of time and I find the lyrics of some of the songs simply meaningless. But I do love korean songs nowadays. Just found out that I have a korean neighbour! I do hope I could learn a few korean words with them. Though, I do know how to speak a few of it.. like, gamsahhamnida, anio haseyo and chisumida (I don't really know the spellings..hehe).

My mum recently told me that actually I had twin brothers, but they died during birth, rather saddening. If they were to be born and still be alive, I won't be here on this earth, it's either the twins or me. So it makes me think that the Lord has gave me this chance to see the world and to admire His wonderful creations on earth. Still, thank You..

I'm one kind of a person who would like to just help you and to carry the burden with you. Just like in Galatians 6:2 "Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ". And if you need any help, just ask me and I'll be there for you, but the greatest help comes from Him :)

If I'm given the chance to have all the fun I want, I'll certainly have it! Yea, for sure! Haha. I can get all crazy at times, if you allow me to :p

I love kids and so now I'm busy with the children ministry, and thank God I was appointed to become the cell leader, and it's really tough, being the youngest teacher among all, but I'm doing it just to obey and to serve Him with the love I cherish for the Most Holy One.

Pastor Pam preached during these past few days and one thing really strucked me. It's like an answer to my question for all these years. Seems like the sermons this season are almost the same, I think it's the time where God wants His people to rise up and speed up. I've been wondering about my life in the future, whether to be just obediantly and commited to serve Him only or to have my own family. My heart is wanting to serve You wholeheartedly but we as humans do have our own human desires. Sigh, I don't really know, O Lord, just need your confirmation about this, my future is still uncertain..