I give all my praise to You!

I would like to just explain the whole scenario that took place during the whole rob thing. That day, well, morning, me and rohana went to the High-5 bread factory because it's quite compulsory for the club members to go for it. We brought some goodies home, big bags of breads and stuff, just had to carry it, too big, haha. Then, we got back around 2.40 pm, I wanted to go for my chinese class, but just too lazy and tired that time (I should've gone). So I had to walk home, as usual, just that Hemala was not with me this time. I just remember carrying my bag and holding that bag of 'goodies', walking alone under that hot sun, terrible.

Not many cars at that time. I was just thinking to myself bout some stuff then suddenly I heard a voice like my conscience (but it's definitely not conscience) that told me I'm gonna be rob! And the amazing thing is, it told me where it's going to take place, and true enough, it really happened! Then when I was just goin to pray, a motorbike just came towards me, for dunno what reason I stopped at that moment and place, cos the road was quite narrow and there's a car infront of me, so naturally I stop for the car or bike to pass through. After that, hah, frightening thing happen. Suddenly the bike stopped and a guy behind another guy who's driving the bike got off and came behind me. He started grabbing me and spoke in malay, rather muffled, saying 'bagi saya wang awak' I was quite terrified and shock at the fact that it really came true. And I saw he was holding a knife, oh gosh, freaking man, it's a big knife again, phew!

Ok, then I said ok, ok, and he just quickly open the zip and took my money and key away and the goddies! During that, I prayed in tongues infront of him, out loud. I think he must have thought I was cursing him or something, haha. Oh, and before that, I also prayed that he won't take my mp4 away, and thank God he didn't!! Then he got onto the bike. Btw, he's a malay and the other guy who's riding the bike was wearing helmet, so I can't possibly see his face. I was too stunned and shocked that time that I didn't even think of looking at the carplate. Sigh, should have been more aware. Then a lady driving her bus came to me and she asked me some questions. Actually, if she saw what had happened, then why didn't she just called the police or something? Well, nvm, maybe she was too shocked herself or maybe she saw the knife too, hmm.. whatever, can't blame her also. Besides, she asked me to call my mum to pick me up, oww.. but my mum can't, she's stuck at home. No choice but to walk home alone...

I didn't really cried that time, just shocked that it really happened, well, yea, did cry a little. Then I told my mom everything and she tried to calm me down. So I tried to cool down for while and sms 2 of my most trusted friends, urmm, or 'bros', haha.. sigh, actually, guys, it was quite hard to tell it, but I just had to, cos it's just too hard for me to handle it alone. Thanks guys, for your help. And thanks brian, for helping me with those comforting words, thank you so so much. Traumatic? seriously, yea, who wouldn't say no, unless you're some kind of person that's so damn fearless of course. But I manage to get over it now, phew, I'm still as cool and tough as I used to be. Yup, strength is what I needed most that time, strength to really overcome it. lol.. I played the piano that evening and I played it with much emotion and the dynamics was great! Haha, would've got high marks if it was exam. I seriously thought bout this kinda things during that time, I'm weird huh? Some people would've cried really loud and try not to do anything but sleep. I can't sleep at that time, haha. Though I got a headache, I just wanted to... dunno.

I told myself that I'm gonna forgive that guy for what he has done and if I ever saw him again, I will tell him a great news which he has yet to know :) I just really wanna thank the Lord that he has really indeed protect me during that time, that I didn't got hurt or killed that time. It's by Your amazing grace and mercy that has led me to understand and important lesson which I couldn't have thought of. In all things, I wanna give my utmost praise and thanks to You! Truly You're one great and true God that's unlike any others, Amen. But though things like this may happen to you, God will always be there to comfort you and heal that trembling thought of yours. Just ask Him, and He will be there for you. Why did He let this happen to me? Well, that's kinda personal, more of like a lesson for me to learn. He let it happen for a purpose. Nevertheless, I'm thankful and gald it happen, to help me realise something that meant so important to me. During that whole process, I tried to be just cool and calm, smile and laugh with my friends and so on, just tried to feel normal. But it was a struggle. I kept imagining accidents, and lots of terrrible stuff, even when I'm on the road or in the car, my imagination would just go wild with those disastress stuff. It just haunts me and it's freakishly scary. I just prayed and it got better. The Power of Prayer :D

To tell you the truth, I was emotionally disrupted since then, but the Lord healed my heart slowly, to bring that broken pieces back to it's place, it took time. I had to go through it for months and only now, I could really set that poignant and trauma free.. with the help of the Most Holy One. So that's why I'm writing it now! Haha..

As the word says:
"I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble" Proverbs 4:11, 12 (NIV)

Yes, wisdom and strength. I shall not stumble once more, but rise up with much strength and boldness, leaving behind the past and moving forward, with steps that will not be hampered

Above all, I wanna thank God again and thank you too.