May I?

I find it just simply hard to be able to take that breath when things around me seem wrong, uncertainty that prevails. Sigh, it sounds emo, but I'm not emo-ing, cos it's not good.



Harh.. my only hope to ever forgetting those dreadful thoughts at times is to just turn to the Father, the One that can take any insecurities, depressions and that hopeless self out of one. The greatest comforter yet a ruler and King above all.



Sigh, my life fell to a conclusion: everything doesn't seem really important now, giving it all up to Him seem to be the best panecea to my answer. Lord, have all the words from your chosen ones to me have been the answer to my question all while? I'm full of uncertainties that affects my concentration, and has drain off my energy till the last bit of it.

Just found out that ron has the same ambition as I do but he says it's not good business here, true. It makes me think that all this worldly ambitions and desires or pleasures isn't the utmost priority in my life. To me, he's just my guy-friend, nothing more to it, just someone I could talk to at times, mere friends.

I'm clueless.. Could I get over with all this, that I too can contradict what have been said? That love too may seem unimportant to me at the end? THAT I'm not sure.. but it seem I could let it go just like that.. Someone has asked me just now whether I've a boyfriend or not, but I just simply reply him as I've said before, is: this hasn't really been in my mind for now, I'll save it for later, when the time is right.. but for now, it would just be God and other important stuff. Why? Definite uncertainty.

One question

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May I?