Long time blogie...

Wow, it's been a while since I last posted anything here. Say, a year? Well, maybe, coming to. Truthfully, I'm kind of despaired because it's the end of year! Who won't? After coming to this new school, I found myself attached to this bunch of people. It's sweet, definitely sweet. We shared some good memories of each other, moments which one could not possibly forget. It's a predictable thing, but I'm afraid this could only last a year and hopefully another year.

Neway, haha, all I can say is, I love you guys.. I love this class, especially those who were closed to me, outspoken yet so loving. How sweet and warm to be close to all of you. I hope the attractions we have for each other would last till the last days of our lives - forever :)

Tell the world that JESUS Lives!!!

I love this song not just because of the song, but the words that speak of truth.

Banner dancing pics

First day...

So weird guy...

Chopin hated this piece, yet we grade 8-ers and diplomarians love and adore this piece.. jus some weird composer. Oh well.

One Good Friday=)

Indeed the Good Friday we all know best--the Day Death Died and the day we all know His endurance and sacrifice made for us All. Speaking about endurance, I jus wanna share bout yesterday(Friday). Everything was all well during morning at school, heading towards the assembly hall with everyone else, like usual, starting off a conversation with my new best friend, Soo way, who's so dear to me. Then, owh, Puan Juzira, our form and Physics teacher just patted real hard on my shoulders. I though, oh my gosh, is she gonna give me kad merah? For I didn't sew my name tag on my pinafore, oops, and it's just this uniform that I hadn't sew one on, sgh. Worst of all, she told me that I would get a penalty today cos I didn't hand up my report card. Hah, I almost freak out, what to do? We students never had to buy one, why is the rule here so different? Anyway, I just head to the Chemistry lab. Then a prefect came to my class and asked me to go back to assembly hall. Oh my, discipline teacher was there with a bunch of students sitting a group there.

But thank God she was not at all mean or harsh, phew! At that moment, I thought, what's gonna turn out? Finally a mark on the kad merah where I never in my life had a mark on one before? Dad, im sorry if this is gonna embarrass you and whether if I could still get a scholarship I've wanted. I would always think alot of one thing and the consequences of it. Before I knew, tears rolled down. I dunno why I cried.. I know I'm that kind of girl who won't cry with ease, just not me at all. Besides, such small thing, why should I cry then? Suddenly, teacher called out my name, hah, I was still in tears by then, speaking with abstruse words cos I was crying, sigh. At that time I prayed that teacher would let me go, thankfully she did, saying that I need to pass up the report card by tomorrow(this morning). Ok, so all was alright until I came back from tuition and rushed to church after that. Supposedly I had to buy me the book at the stationary shop cos our koperasi doesn't sell like anything!

So my dad had to put my mum down at church and rushed to the bookstore, and it was 10 mins to 8:30. My dad obviously was furious, knowing that he'll be late at church. Worst off, I didn't bring enough money cos I was rushing to go. So he scolded me, lecturing me the whole journey. But those paternal words really strucked me. I am who I am--so blur, indecisive at times, clumsy, blahh. He really told me off, but I know it's for my own good. Then we went in to church, worship was on. Singing 'Above all', my, I literally cried. I was remembering the past events took place from when I was young-- I really thought I was a plonker in primary school days, during primary 1, cos I will get among the last position in class while my siblings had always did well in their studies, rather intimidated by this. Then the lyrics strucked me, above all powers and all creations, He is King above all. Jesus came to died for us, being mocked and condemn, though compltely innocent and good, paying a ransom for our sake. He is Son of God, and He had to do this for us, little, tiny creatures, unseen in outerspace... What does our sufferings compared to this? Why should I be so intimidated by something small as such. I can advise ppl on this and that, but who am I to do such? simply hypocrisy. Then the next song, 'Here I Stand Forgiven' tears rolled down again.

This is raftly it, there's till summore to it but I can't continue, just one night of encountering with God through His Holy Spirit. I can't describe the feeling I had at that time, but I know I never felt this way, a mix feeling combined with things of my childhood times. But I should not dwelleth in things of the past, but move on and grow stronger even more. This day, I really realized that I am no different from that either. My heart could not sustain that much, but only He can, and thank you Lord, for dying on the Cross for us, that I am now forgiven and for everyone else too. Thank You so, so much!!!

Banner dancing session

Well, today would be the second training session for the banner dancing I'm currently joining. The teaching coach, Pastor Jean Schofield Ward (in the video). Frankly speaking, when pastor Jean said about: "Girls that comes in for the first may feel a lil bit timid" --I really am so! Haha!But thank God He led me to overcome it:) Seriously we were blessed for she didn't charge us anything for the session, just that we had to buy the banners for RM90 and video for RM10. These are the 3 songs we all have learnt today:

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Babbling~

Oh well, today was our church Mega Carwash day, a contribution to build a toilet for a combodian whose heart is for the Lord we all love most. Yit Phin took pics for the day, dunno when she'll upload it... My group had to wash a big Naza Ria and 4 other cars in 2 hours time, but we manage to pull it off since we didn't wash the last car -- Pastor's car.. oops! That time everyone was so exhausted I guess, not to mention the weather. And Ken Yoong's team stole my bucket from my team! But i guess they just took it and wash the car with the water in it. Lol, sorry for this going-to-be long winded post, just babbling for fun, hehe. Typing all this out while helping my dad to find information for his thesis. Dato' C.S Ong and Auntie Jessica got baptised today! Haha! Seriously I adore them. Even though he's a public figure, but he's so humble! That's what amaze me most. These are the 2 of 'em:

We took this picture after the prayer meeting, which is actually their Anniversary and Auntie's b-day!

This is the year that i finally, trully realise the importance for me to study and work real hard for the furtherance of my education. So I went online always to research on the role and the job of an architect. After I messaged my friend during that night (in the pic), literally I cried, cos.. I too am not sure whether I'm going to take the right path God wants to have, being an architect is hard, especially after watching those videos on 'How to be an Architect'... But Thank God for giving dad a revelation -- a confirmation and answer to my question all this while, really gave me a relief! Thank You, Lord:) So still, He stays the utmost priority in my life, always and I finally realised what I have miss all these years~

Becoming stronger

My, my.. how time goes by, marks of test papers before you, unequivocally knowing what kind of marks you gonna get. Assignments fill your table tops, piling as high as everest at land. Distressing with a device screen before you, typing your hearts aloud, not forgetting your revision book that lays infront too. This test, that test, when will it end? Gosh... rhythming rhyms, rehearsing dialogues, viv-a-visa the facts of history, it's much harder. It's just a way we get much mature too, absorbing much knowledge, stuffing it into our minds and soul. Still, put His Word first. Palpitating my hearts go wild, sighing at the part we all do, but take heed, myself, the joy of He is thy strength. Before you He reaches out His hand, waiting for thy to hold, strengthening thyself stronger than before, thy fortress rebuild and in Word it says, 'you are more than conquerors'. Be lifted up from the miry's clay, O Mighty, forever, I'll never be the same cos You came here, from the everlasting, to the world in need, the Father's only son. And so, my saying, 'the source of strength from you is beyond splendor, yet we were blind to even know it before.' A writing to encourage myself, when time comes when strength of one becomes lacking, I count on You :)

And so..

As far as this one go, alone not many could grasp the true meaning if 'it'. Shall I call it a mere statement? But to all it differs in meaning. A beaut with scars beneath or within that awaits with much eager, of something that could hold this heart of hers besides the cardiac within. A feeling which one couldn't expect.. heavy, atrocious, and finally.. unmitigated. An unfeigned love, unsullied? She was, rather ruffled with her mind, patently saying: "I'm a fool, gosh!" Even figuring or plumbing utterance poorly spoken. Yet such poshy, acquisite possesion she refuse, what more does she wants? Astonishing she, statute and righteousness, her character that moves, passion of full and panache of an honorable lady. Can one be describe as of par excellence and adorn with words like such? But still she bereft of one important thing. And so my hope for the posterity to know the One who longs for you to come to Him, regardless of the affluent or the paupers, the acolyte either master, acquaintance or friends, be transformed by the mighty King who is coming to meet His people once more and to bring them back to His Father. And so, be prepared...

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Fuh...

Gosh, I didn't know I would be so blur these days. Seriously I don't like it at all. I lost practically almost everything! Gosh, what happened to me, Lord? I tend to lose strength each day. Just today, I got so angered even its a small thing. And, I need to ask you for forgiveness on that. Gosh, I feel so reckless.. Still, Your Word always remind me that they that wait upon You shall renew their strength. I'm not jus physically tired, but, sigh, just feel like 50% of my strength gone. Lord, can You smack my head and wake me up? Pls don't smack too hard, lol, sorry. Sigh.. and I'll really be frustrated if ppl do say the word 'aiyoh' gosh, it's really annoying to me, yea, I misunderstood bout it, but pls dun say that word, sigh..
SSK cell 2 is starting begining on March, and our meeting is always a week earlier, so I couldn't go for the Youth Alpha, sigh, I know it's gonna be a lot of fun. Fuh, I need strength on that, it drains me alot. But why should I be weary when You are the Jehovah Jireh huh? Despite all, I still wanna thank You for providing me that 50% to move on. Thank You, LORD :)

La~

La~ well, I don't need to go to SCHOOL tomorrow!! Yipee!! ~ Ahh, get to rest for a day and get rid of those tiredness but i'm required to finish my homework no matter what too, haih. VALENTINES day is tomorrow? lol.. and I just wanna wish my friends on this day.. it's not specifically for couples, FRIENDSHIP is allowed too :D my rule, hehe.

Mum said she wanted to put me in one of those private schools, but dad said it's a slight chance to get in to local uni-s if I were to be in those schools. Oh well, I would jus hav to work super hard and pull myself up in any circumstances, but still, I really need the grace and help of the Lord to do so, haha.

One of my friend asked me to go for an event on Valentines day, but I jus simply replied that 'it's just not my time yet' lol.. What I mean is, maybe.. my heart ain't ready for it yet, and I'm just afraid I'll get hurt if it doesn't go the way I wish it would be. It's not my choice of not wanting it.. well I'm not sure.. if it's God's will, then let His will be done :) Let Him choose the right one for me. And, I don't require much, as long as he puts God above all else and love the Lord more than me. And so, "let my heart be free in time to come when all else is right and let His will be done. " And still, my favorite song from Yiruma: Do you..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9vKjxwVcnc&feature=related
And also : Tears on love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQ1JAuBeVAE&feature=related

Whoa! simply a wow~

My piano teac. gave a piano grade 8 piece: Allegro con Spirito by the excellent, renown Muzio Clementi. Gosh.. it's tough, since I had to skip grade 7 to grade 8.. save money :D and fast, haha. 5 paged long a piece, guess how long it may take for me to master this piece, but it's really nice, especially the begining and the end.. and it's just amazing the way this girl plays it .. and she's only 14! Whoa! bravissima!

Just ignore this... ramblings

Haha, too bored, not too keen to the homeworks, gosh... I can't figure out how to do those Add math q's. Yup, ask you! But you were not online.. hehe, so asked my dad, but he managed to teach me few questions.. guess it was just too many of em' for him. He's tired so I don't wanna trouble him too. Haih.. I'm not emphasizing on this, it's just some ramblings by me, of course. :p sorry.. this is how I sound when I'm so tired & frustrated..... :D hehe. Crazily me.

I know this blog is just so boring, but it's more to me as a diary rather than just typing down my emotions or anger, blahh... I'm just using this blog to glorify His name and testify His great splendour. Yupee...

Most of you may not know this facts about me. Well, sometimes I'm just rather serious when I talk, it's just the way I am. But if I wanna joke, I can really make you laugh. I'm just shy and I dun really expose my true emotions that obviously. My legs keeps hurting these few days, worst than before.. both legs are hurt rather than just one. But still, I must have faith that I'll get better, yup. Thank You, Lord :)

Lol, today at school the four girls including me got into a conversation of their 'love life', lol, girls talk. Haha, I didn't started it, but it's a girl's talk, so it's about girls 'love life' problems? nahh, we are mature girls, and we know how to handle. lol, what am I talking bout.... hehe. We were just basically talking funny or weird stuff just to distress. Haha, then I asked them a question, rather secret :p... "What if you find that guy to be your true love and you love him so much but it seems he doesn't really like you though you 2 are rather close? will you still stay loyal to him only because he's your true love?" They said yea.. lol, I don't know where did that come from.

Well, ok, end to that. Gosh.. I dun wanna say anymore.. haha. ta-ta :)

Let Your will be done!

Well, just a scoop of my new school. It's rather shocking to see the students keeping quiet during every singing of the anthem and so forth, and the people there are mostly chinese, so you can imagine the people-in-charge are mostly which race. I'm writing this now, as I'm too tired of finishing my Sejarah homework. I went for prayer meeting with my parents last night which the Lord actually prompted me to go at first. But, just gonna obey Him forgetting the loads of homework at home. And, haha, the leader asked me to pray for the Children and Youthes, as only me and another girl are present as youth 'representative', but she was supposed to pray since she is more senior than me, supposedly. I kept praying in tongues and I got a lil nervous as it was my first time praying in front of the adults who were intercessors.. fuh! Then the Lord impressed on me the desire to really pray for the children and youthes as we are the next generation and the world is in our hands in coming.
So.. I'm just gonna work on it, and see what God has installed for me: His plans, His mission for me. Take it on, breaking bondages, let His will be done.

Heart Anew

Phew.. after one week of CNY in Kuching, I felt rather different this whole 1 week especially when I was packing my stuff to come back to KL. This whole week was, wow, revival I would say, so awesome~ Anyway, the most chun person is my mum, going to every of my relative's house and spreading the good news about Him and my dad's testimony, which is, He is now healed from cancer! Miracalously! WooHoo! Praise Him in the Highest! Amazing thing, when my mum shared all the stories, all of them kept quiet and listen carefully to my mum :D Which they used to be hard and their pride which used to cut off all of this, but by God's grace they didn't! And also my mum is a good story teller.

Yea, this week was also the time when God told me or advice me in things which He would want me to do for Him. Well, Lord, I will promise to work diligently and obediantly for Your sake. Lol, You asked me to read 1 Kings & 2 Kings once more and I understand the greatness of You and the punishment You will give to those who turn away from You, like some of the Kings for example Ahab and Ahaziah, their whole descendants were banished and none are left! That shows how real You are! Yup, my promise, to work my best to revive the next generation even till the last bit of my strength. I must make my promise, must, or not, shreek, doom. Lord, You're looking what I'm writing right now, gosh... it's serious matter! But still, Lord, wisdom and strength, my source of strength! Still can't do it without Your help...

As the second coming of Christ is near, Your people are reviving as You've planned, disasters upon disasters, trials and tribulations, it's all the sign of it. So, rise up people of God! Turn your hearts to the great He that has loved you from the bottom of His heart and He who has saved you in every possible way! Rise up!!

I'm just so tired..

Though it's just the 3rd week of school.. I'm already exhausted with all the work! Gosh.. what's gonna await me after this? I've not been sleeping well... can't even have my nap cos I've to do my work, and I get home real late too. Arh.. can't believe I fell in the toilet that day, slipped and hurt my head and backbone, thank God its nothing serious, but severe pain may come if I'm not precautious enough. This has really added pain to me, stress and pains? Gosh, Lord HELP!! Btw, I'm one who's good at enduring pain and I don't usually shout or scream.. but when I say it hurts, it really do.. Phew.. just so stress out, and sorry guys if I didn't have much time to message you, rather tired and busy, hehe, but still can online, yea, I wanna do work. Anyway, I'm gonna go back Kuching this Sat!! Yipee! I miss 'you' so much, you know? I miss the food and the people I adore so much there. I miss my house.. gonna take a picture of it when I get back later. Yea, gonna visit what it's best known for! The beaches!! I used to get so bored goin to 'em, guess I'm not now, since I rarely find any here, though there is, haha. I miss my friends there too, gonna pay them a visit later, do a checklist too! Wheee....

Anyhow, I wanna have my rest! Adios!

For thy..

Flashing remenisce appears rapidly as thoughts that I find simply unbearable and rolling tears strolls down that cheek of mine. How time flies! Ah~ how those sweet moments swift through and here it comes, sufferings to endure. Our mind switches, thoughts travels farther and wider apart, remeniscing the past and embracing what is now. Thus, too, that some would ever hope time pauses or could rewind, and being carefree and rather free in thinking, to be released from all boundaries of life. We do face things either atrociously bad or awesomely good, it's not what we could change or choose, just the way it is, so.. then be it.

Pondering the subject of this, many too are thinking the way I am, that maybe there's a panacea to enfold this rumbling tumblings and open a new chapter of life full of gladness! But peeps, there is..

That One who came upon this earth on a day we know of well,

thee that humbles thyself to bring teachings to thy people;

And thou do miracles upon miracles that astonishes not few,

but this One suffers atrociously yet some rejoices over those;

for not for thy sake but ours that thy lay upon the cross,

that thee could save us from all!

Thank You, O Lord, that Yeshua has paid the price for us on the cross, that we could glorify thy name who is above all else, the King of kings and Lord of lords, Amen.

New schoolbie~

Walla, first day of school was kinda weird, thank God one of my church friend was there. Lol, my first buddy in that school is a guy, he's a new student too, he comes from PJ, but for some reason he's here. He's quite nice to talk too, ahah, but frankly, he and another guy is friendlier than the others, the rest, urgh, only talk to their own 'species'. The girls in the class are awesomely friendly! Wow, seriously I've never met any of my classmates like em', makes me feel warm, lol.
Urgh.. I can't go for running now, sobs, do hope that the Lord would heal my leg as soon as possible, wanna go play tennis with friends! Sigh, miss sports now, but I'm thankful that I could at least walk quite normally, though sometimes my steps are not really stable, hehe.
Hah... Lord, I really need your strength to keep me strong, that I can handle school works and not be overly exhausted that I can't fully prepare myself for the ministry work, harh..
Above all, thank You for ever providing me with new friends that could be there with me.

Lalaaa~

Lalaaaa~~

School is goin to reopen soon!! That means have to study again.... haih.... new school.. new bunch of friends.. new teachers.. sigh. Guess I'm not gonna be a prefect after 2008... rather tired, went for 3 interviews and became a prefect for so many years d, tired, so don't want d..

So... I better study hard!! F4 is not easy, new subjects, harder to tackle..

Most of all, God bless all my friends who are going to take their SPM results!!!